The Bucket List

I watched "The Bucket List" with Deardear , Samuel and Mingyan yesterday. It's really a good movie. Rather deep. Actually it's just two cancer-stricken men who got warded into the same hospital became frens got to know they both were dying soon and decided to fulfill everything in "the bucket list"- a list of wat they wanna do before they kick the bucket. Of Course both of them died in the end but it's rather heart-warming and sets one thinking.

Come to think of it, if one doesnt know when he's dying, he wun feel the urgency to do wat he wants or need to. However, the truth is, like wat Samuel said, we all dunno when we are gg to die right? Wat if it's today? Shouldnt we cherish every sand drop from the hour glass?

http://thebucketlist.warnerbros.com/

Hmm, I am definitely not prepared to die today, nor to face a death of a loved one.

Just a week ago, I acted as Mary Magdalene in our Church's Easter drama. I was entrusted with a heavy task of acting "crying wailing broken". Lazarus-my brother in the drama died of TB(? dunno, no one say wat he died of but i assume it's TB since he coughed himself to death) I was supposed to act hysterical, cry, wail, boo hoo. This is really a great challenge for me. I am totally not the kind of "drop tear in 10 sec" kinda actress and crying in act has always been my Archille's heel. I think i really fear death. Not as in afraid of dying but afraid of the sorrow that comes with it. Like Edward in "The Bucket List" I never would want to attend funerals and if possible I will avoid gg any at all cost. Honestly, I really would rather die before my loved ones do cos i am so afraid of how sad i would be. I remember a chinese literature from my o levels, this olden day guy wrote a love letter to his wife and i remember very clearly wat he said in the letter, "i would rather the you(the wife) die first so that you do not need to bear the grief of my death" Isn't that beautiful? Morbid as it is but beautiful. I am scared. Scared of losing my family, scared of Leoleo dying, most of all I am scared of separation with Randy. I really pray that when the day comes for it to happen, we will be in our ripe old age and it's is prepared for in advance. I always think to myself that i want to be like the literature guy who is willing to bear the pain instead of letting my loved ones grief.

I think I should fanxing fanxing and really cherish every moment I have with my dear ones. Actually I am really afraid of the day for my grandmother. She's already 98 this year!!! I really do not know how to tell her abt Jesus, I dun even how how to tok to her properly. I should slap myself for being so selfish. It seems like I am not urgent at all. But how? Wat should I do?

Hai! Hai! Hai!

Ok enough of being emo and morbid let me share my LUST LIST instead.

1)

Yep yep,

I am getting Christine's fren to buy for me.

Ribera Mini, I like the shape but actually i prefer a monogram kind moreover, Youko say it's more than 2 years liao, dunno still have not.

Ellipse Pm, The pancake look alike, doesnt it look like Doraemon's fav pancake?

This is Manhattan Pm, really cool but super heavy lo. hai. short list a few first den say. Anyway, Chris's fren gg only in Jun July.

2)Digital Camera

http://www.sony.com.sg/microsite/cybershot/products/t2/more/index.html







This is super cool lo. I really like to take photos so it's really amazing how i survive so long without one. maybe i should just ask for cash on my birthday and topup to get myself a camera. I want the lime green one.

3)I really should go add my Christian name in. Makes things easier.


4)Hahaha, I am tking this pic as role model. Dun tell you who is this.



5) Ok, I really dun wanna a-choo unecessarily anymore you know.
i wish i can cut off the sensitive membrane.


6)Hmm, quite impossible.

7)Gotta wait a little longer.


I think getting everything of hers is great. the hair, abs and thighs.

8)Bling bling

ok i cant find a nice pic to show wat i want but you know the round rather big faced leather strap(white or pink) with bling bling.

Ok i think lust lists and bucket lists can go on and on forever and ever and ever and ever and...